My first wife returns to the limelight with her first single off, The Elements of Freedom; which is releasing December 1st...
Alicia Keys - "Doesn't Mean Anything" Music Video
Honestly. My morning was messed. I seriously thought I was put in a situation that I wasn't really in. I seriously thought I lost a lot in an instant and everything I had was slipping through my fingers. Talk about fragile right.
I admit I'm not in the healthiest of states. Sleep-deprivation-wise, friendship-wise and relationship-wise. There's only so much you can control with your own power. I haate feeling helpless. So that's why if any ship goes down, I should stand up to the sinking until I'm hair-line deep. Because no matter how bad things are, in reality, there's always room for things to be worse.
Cherish the good things you have. If they're gone, you want them back. I felt kinda lost/confused and damn, it sucked. I realized I'm too preoccupied with my own sh!t to deal with anything outside of me--selfish I know. I kept thinking; how do you cope when you don't have the time to play mender? I was pretty rattled, heart-broken even; when really I didn't have to be. It's like playing 'what-if' without eliminating the fantasy. Pretty whack. This is what went through my head during class; so it's appropriate that this video dropped today I guess.
I'm out like contentment after realizing you're losing it...
Usually I dig deep, and pull out a blog. But I honestly can't right now. I'm HELLA bored right now at school. So I guess I'll create my most boring blog to date and I'll talk about my morning a la first-person narrative because all this Engineering stuff has me missing English to a point where I'm considering English as an elective, ew. Maybe this will satisfy my yearning for English...
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I woke up early this morning and--as a premeditated act--I went to downtown Toronto to my UofT campus (where I currently am). The reason for this trip is because the flood gates for elective registration for my program open tomorrow morning. I had some inquiries and what not to get out of the way before I made elective decisions...
Due to family bickering, I do not have access to a car, but I was lucky enough to get a ride to the GoTrain station this morning. As I boarded the train, I noticed a couple police officers aboard the train. I immediately checked my pocket for my unpunched ticket and I glanced out the window. I then gave up any attempts of running out of the train and back up the stairs to punch my ticket. So I painfully took my seat knowing they would check tickets some time during the ride and I would get a fine that I cannot afford. All that went through my head was that I'm screwed because I already have one warning from last summer. The time I forgot to punch my 10-ride on my way downtown for a concert...
Now in my seat, I spent the whole time giving the illusion that I was sleeping while I contemplated what I would say to the officer that would approach me. As the officer walked up to my seating area repeating the words 'we're checking tickets', I pretended to slowly gain attentiveness as if I was just interrupted from a good nap...
After the woman officer saw me, she demanded to see my ticket. I took my time and eventually pulled out my ticket after checking two pockets without success; although I already knew where it was. In my hand was the double-sided 2-ride ticket. It was very fresh and it was indeed unpunched...
As I looked a the ticket, I gave an expression of confusion and pretended to read the ticket and said 'I didn't punch it, I thought I got a day pass because they were the same price'. She looked and me with a little empathy and told me to just punch the ticket when I get off the train. I was overcame with a little relief...
Then she said, 'as procedure, I need some ID to check if this has happened before'. In a bit of defeat I handed her my driver's license and confessed to my past warning before she could speak into her walkie-talkie...
Over some interference, the voice of the device said, in code, that I got a warning in May of 2008 for not punching my ticket. Had it been August 2008 I would've received a fine of $110-$500. Which is a serious economic blow to a second year student...
In desperation, I continued with my not-very-thought-out excuse, 'I usually get 10-rides and monthlys, so I'm unfamiliar with the system of 2-rides and day passes'...
With curiosity the lady officer said ,'well you must be familiar with the system if you know the difference between a day pass and a 2-ride.' [damn you!] 'Next time, know what you are asking for at the ticket booth' [I did know I wanted a 2-ride] 'I'm going to be nice again and write you your second warning' [you bastard]... efffff emmmm elllll...
Yes, it took me one hour from when my train got to the station to when I got to the parking lot where my car was. No I did not fall down the stairs and regain consciousness an hour later. No I did not get lost walking to the parking lot. No I did not get off a stop earlier and walk..well close lol...
I frggn fell asleep and got off the next stop in downtown bramp! The stupid thing was, I woke up one stop before my stop (mltwn) and turned off my alarm because I thought I wouldn't sleep again. Then before I knew it I woke up at my stop (brmlea) at 3:23. Closed my eyes for some reason, why? you idiot!, and that's when it clicked that it was my stop...
So I ran my ass off down the stairs to the door while the P.A. dude said 'doors closing'. The doors were, in fact, closed when I got to them and I tried to pry the door open, lol. After I realized it wasn't possible, I rode to the next stop with my head in my hands, lol...
From then I had to bus to the mall, then wait a bit, then bus back to brmlea to get my car. It took roughly over an hour, so I got there at 4:27pm...eff em ellll __________
Oh yeah and the bus driver was whack? I put in 60 cents and he didn't let me sit? So I put in 70 instead of 65 because I had no change--almost put in a dollar, but I found a dime. It's all pennies anyways...
The Cool Kids - "Pennies"
This song has way too much swag.
I'm out like myself from my stop the first time around...
ATTENTION: THIS IS MY LAST POST FOR BLOGSPOT, I'M DONE WITH BLOGGING ALL TOGETHER--I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO TALK ABOUT!!! SO PEACE BLOGSPOT!
...April Fools! Lame, I know lol =/ I'm tired and I had a long day to say the least.. ______________________ I got home just now from playing ball at UTM. The gym closed at 11pm. Left there by 11pm and just got home at 12am-sih. Why!?Because my car wouldn't start againn. %@&*&*#@. I was doing everything I possibly could. I must've pumped the clutch and played with the gears in like every variation possible! (eff em ell). Ah wells, I got it started though. I was literally 2 seconds away from tapping out and calling my dad to call CAA. This happened SOmany times before where the car had to be towed. So therefore, it was nothing short of a miracle...
Anyways. Basically I took it in that pride ain't sh!t. I am a very stubborn and passionate person--sometimes I project that stubbornness in the wrong situations. When I argue it's always for one of two reasons; one: "because I'm reasoning things out in an 'argumentive' mannor" and two: "because I know I'm right when I'm told I'm wrong". Apparantly, stubborness + pride = arrogance? That's what I've been told. TI guess that's what it comes across as, so I can see how that can happen. Basically when I fight for things, and I know I'm right, it's a wrap because I won't rest until my point is across and the other person knows I'm right, that's my stubborness =S...
I learned that, none of that matters. Being right and everyone knowing you're right doesn't matter. Even when you absolutely know in your heart you're right, you have to learn to be content with just knowing to yourself, that's it. You don't have to justify your reasoning to anyone else but your own self. You need to have a level ofhumility with things and not jump on these opportunities of pride. Pride is nothing, it means nothing. At the end of the day, it does nothing for you but boost your ego? It doesn't help you progress, or learn. It holds you back and restrains you from growing up. Pride means nothing to the bigger picture. If bettering the situation means being humble, then step on that pride and suck it up. At the end of the day it's all about the bigger picture; it's not about that specific point in time and not about achieving the temporary and hallow satisfaction of being right...
Q-Tip - We Fight/We Love [Feat. Raphael Saadiq]
"We fight and love so much, sometimes I get confused of who we are, Maybe if we just stopped and chat a bit, we'd find out who we are..."(c)raph
So right now I'm at school trying to get some stuff done. I have no internet at home, womp womp. Apparently I have a virus yet again!? It's whack because I get my internet suspended a lot because of this problem and these 'viruses'.
I swear Rogers is planting viruses or something because when I do find the virus they speak of it's in old folders!! I mean, wouldn't I catch these virsuses the millon times I scanned before!? I don't know. It seems I get 'new' viruses a lot--they end up in folders I already scanned weeks before, which is whack. I think it's Rogers tracking download numbers and finding ways to suspend me from over-using/downloading illegally--who knows. ef em elll Last night I was with Nadine and merked myself with jap food at 168 Sushi. Uggghhh. I didn't eat all day until dinner. I ate so much to a point where I felt immobile--never again that much that fast. But so damn good, until the end lol.
I know I'm late, but this songs been in rotation for a bit...
Keri Hilson - "Knock You Down" [Feat. Kanye West & Ne-Yo]
The song is Knock You Down off Keri Hilson's 2009 album, 'In a Perfect World'. It's a pretty dang good song. The video is directed by Chris Robinson. The directing is corny to me at first, but it gets kinda dope. Robinson always ends up doing something innovative with his videos. The storyline is a love triangle between Keri, Ne-Yo and Kanye West, lol...
I need to shower and get ready. I was planning to wake up early to organize my books because I can't do homework until they are, but I woke up an hour later then I wanted. Then my mom made me drive her to work the literal minute I woke up, and that killed a bunch of my time. So right now, I have no time to organize myself like I wanted but enough time to blog?lol. Also my clothes smell like garlic because my grandpa is cooking fried rice. I promised myself I wouldn't skip any lectures this week because I missed so many already, but yesterday I slept in and missed 3 frggn lectures and today I'm missing my 9am and 10am lectures because I have to go to court. I'm going to my first hearing at 9am because I got a ticket for not wearing a seatbelt the first time in my life, 2 minutes away from my house...and I'm eating cereal for breakfast and it's probably soggy from me taking time to type this. And I gained stress weight, and my posture sucks, lol... eff em ellll
